Chapter 3: All Things Are Possible

"All Things Are Possible But Jesus looked at them and said to them, 'With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
(MATTHEW 19:26 (EMPHASIS ADDED))

On February 1 the Lord visited with me as soon as I went to bed, around 11 p.m. Because of the trembling of my body that always accompanied the Lord's visits, Roger was now sleeping in the guest bedroom. It was a good thing he had made this change, because on this particular evening the shaking was more intense than ever before, and it was accompanied by other manifestations of the Lord's presence as well.

Immediately the Lord spoke to me, 'My precious daughter, I must show you My presence and talk with you before this work begins.'

His radiant presence had always been stunningly brilliant, but this time He was dressed in white and shining like the sun. His form was beautiful to behold, and so very compelling.

I responded this time by speaking in tongues and singing in the spirit. As I sang, my hands lifted in front of me and they began to move in rhythm with the singing. It was as if I were dancing, but I remained in bed.

I lost control of the movement of my hands and watched them sway back and forth as if they were being moved by a silent wind. It was the wind of the Spirit of God that was moving them, and, upon realizing this, I was overcome with joy and began to laugh. Though I could not see the Lord's face, I heard Him laughing as well.

This phenomenon is known as 'holy laughter' in some circles. I can say without any reservation that I know it is a manifestation of the Lord's presence.

"The Bible tells us: Make a joyful shout to the Lord, all you lands! Serve the Lord with gladness; come before His presence with singing. Know that the Lord, He is God; it is He who has made us, and not we ourselves; we are His people and the sheep of His pasture. Enter into His gates with thanksgiving, and into His courts with praise. Be thankful to Him, and bless His name. For the Lord is good; His mercy is everlasting, and His truth endures to all generations."
(PSALM 100:1-5)

We should not be surprised by joy and laughter when it occurs during times of worship and adoration in the presence of the Lord. It is thoroughly biblical, and we will spend all eternity in His presence, singing, worshiping, laughing, celebrating and experiencing His pleasures. In fact, this is what He wants for us because we are His children. The name of Isaac'the miracle child of Abraham'literally means 'he laughs,' and God wants us to enjoy His presence through the gift of laughter.

Although many of the psalms are songs of sadness, there are some that reflect the joy and laughter that are the true inheritance of God's people. For example, we read in Psalm 126: 'When the Lord brought back the captivity of Zion, we were like those who dream. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing. Then they said among the nations, 'The Lord has done great things for us, whereof we are glad' (vv. 1'3).

When people raise questions about the shaking, singing in the Spirit and holy laughter, I point them to these passages. Solomon, the writer of Ecclesiastes, tells us that there is 'a time to weep, and a time to laugh' (Eccles. 3:4). It's a shame that so many people believe Christianity needs to be stiff and formal, when it is clear that the Lord wants us to experience a full measure of joy. Nehemiah proclaimed, 'The joy of the Lord is your strength' (Neh. 8:10), and the book of Proverbs declares, 'A merry heart does good, like medicine' (17:22). Now I know the true meaning of these healing words.

I was really encouraged by the laughter of my Lord as He visited with me that night. He seemed so pleased with me. As I sang in the spirit, even my own voice took on a different quality. It was my voice'I knew that'but it sounded so different, so beautiful, clear and resonant.

Around midnight the Lord said, 'I love you, My daughter, and I will continue to visit you.' As He departed I felt lighter and freer than I had ever felt before, and I was thrilled with the prospect that He would soon revisit me.

EXPECT MANY SURPRISES

The next day, February 2, began with a very special visitation from the Lord. He began to share many things with me, as He had promised, 'I am releasing all the power you will need to do the work I've chosen you to do.' As I did the night before, I was trembling and singing in the Spirit.

The Lord continued His personal message to me: 'Daughter, the way I am going to use you will be so different. Many of My children will be surprised. I have gifts for all My children, but I will give each one different gifts. Daughter, I want you to be pleased with what you are going to receive.'

It was an exhilarating promise. The Lord assured me that He was preparing me for a special ministry. I wanted only to please Him.

From 2:20 a.m. to 4:18 a.m. the next day He returned to my room to tell me more about the power of prayer. He stood before me in glowing garments of white.

'My daughter, do not be afraid to pray for others, because you are receiving the gift of healing and all the other spiritual gifts,' He said. 'I know that you always want to pray for others and to make them happy. That is why I am giving you these spiritual gifts.'

At first His words were difficult for me to hear. I felt very unworthy to receive so much from my Lord and Master.

He went on: 'You have a special heart, and that is why I answer your prayers. I notice that your heart is pure, and you are an obedient daughter. I trust you with many things. This is why I have chosen you to do this important work. Your faith makes Me very happy, and so does your will power. Your heart is strong and independent, and I am very pleased.'

Obeying the Lord has been so important to me as a Christian. My main goal has always been to please Him. It was so wonderful to hear Him tell me I was pleasing to Him and that He had purified my heart and had seen my obedience. His message to me that night made me even more determined to follow Him in all my ways.

'This is why your faith has grown so strong and you gave up the worldly things for Me,' Jesus continued. 'If you were not what you are, I could not use you for the work I have prepared. What I am going to do with you will surprise you, My daughter. I am your Lord. Remember, nothing is impossible for Me on earth or in heaven. I will release My power to you so I can use you.'

The way the Lord addressed me as 'My daughter' over and over again always caused me to shed tears of love. He was so different from my earthly father. The Lord was tender, respectful, encouraging and sensitive in all His dealings with me. I knew that He knew my needs before I expressed them to Him. I knew that He was my safe place'my 'Rock of refuge''and that compared with Him, any other 'refuge' was sinking sand.

He then explained the shaking in my body. 'Your body shakes for a long time because you need power for this work. I want you to expect many surprises.'

More surprises? I wondered, with joy. I felt like I had already experienced enough to last a lifetime. His visits, my time in prayer and the Word, the precious moments of worship at my church'all of these were having deeply revolutionizing effects in my life.

My faith in the Lord was growing at an accelerating pace. I knew, beyond all doubt, that He is able 'to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us' (Eph. 3:20). The shaking in my body was His power at work in me. He was preparing me for the time when He would prove His ability to do exceedingly abundantly through me.

NO FEAR!

During the night of February 12, my body shook more violently than it ever had. I was almost hurled me from the bed because it was so forceful. I tried to grab the sheets to steady myself, but I couldn't because I had no control over my body. The shaking was unremittingly forceful, and I grew afraid.

My thoughts began to run away with me. Is all this a deception of Satan? What is happening to me? Am I going crazy? I wondered.

Then I remembered what someone had once shared with me''When you are about to receive a blessing, Satan will try to destroy it.' Was this violent shaking the work of Satan or the work of God? I thought it might be Satan trying to harm me. I rebuked the enemy, and then the Lord interjected, 'Daughter, do not fear; I am your Lord.'

That was enough for me. His sweet voice turned my fear into laughter. I heard the echoes of His soft laughter near the window. In a most pleasant and peaceful voice, He said: 'No one will harm you because I will be with you always and I will protect you from the evil things of this world. You are My precious daughter.'

A passage of Scripture came to mind and complemented His words. 'There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. We love Him because He first loved us' (1 John 4:18-19).

The love of the Lord in my life was more real than it had ever been. I knew He loved me. In light of such an amazing love, how could I ever be afraid? The experience of that evening taught me I never again needed to fear Satan, evil or myself, because the Lord had promised that He would be with me forever.

His Word backed up this promise: 'I will never leave you nor forsake you' (Heb. 13:5).

I knew that He had called me to help fulfill His Great Commission: 'Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age' (Matt. 28:19-20).

The verse preceding this tells us how this is possible: 'All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth' (Matt. 28:18). His power, His authority, His strength and His might will prevail in every situation when we yield ourselves to Him.

The Lord gave me additional assurance of His will and His love when He said: 'I am giving you all the gifts you will need to enable you to begin the ministry I'm giving to you. Keep a record of the day and times when I meet with you.

'Your husband, Roger, will have gifts for the ministry too. You need never worry about anything because I promise you that I will take care of you while you are on earth.'

Deep in my heart I knew I didn't need to worry about anything again. He was taking care of everything not only in this life but also in the afterlife. His liberating promises called Psalm 23 to mind, and I focused especially on the final verse of that inspiring psalm: 'Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever' (Ps. 23:6).

With such peaceful thoughts I grew sleepy, and the Lord said: 'I know you are tired. Go to sleep.' The Lord does, indeed, give His beloved sleep.

A NEW BODY

From 11 p.m. to 1:08 a.m. on February 19 and February 20, the Lord took me walking with Him. Once again, the familiar hard shaking of my body and the intense heat of His anointing alerted me to His imminent arrival. His presence was stronger than ever before, and then I heard His voice: 'I am your Lord, My precious daughter, and I am about to release all the work I've prepared for you to do.' I could see Him standing by the window, and His glorious form was clearer to me than it ever had been before.

'Daughter, I must show you some things,' He stated as He extended His hand in my direction. Next, I felt the strange sensation of my body being lifted from the bed. Not knowing what was happening, I began to scream and flail my arms wildly. It seemed as if the insides of my body were detaching from the rest of me. It was an experience that truly defies description. I even felt my body to see if it was still the same. I wondered if I was dying.

My mind was clear, and I was groaning in my spirit. Then I recognized that I was with the Lord, wearing a white robe like His. My body was new. I was like a young girl again. Even my hair was long and straight.

I realized I was walking along a deserted beach with the Lord. Perhaps you can imagine how surprised I was. He had transported me from my bed, home and body and had given me a new body that enabled me to fly and walk with Him. The Lord of heaven and earth had suspended the laws of gravity, life, time and space in order to show me some things that I will never forget.

The Bible says, 'Flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; nor does corruption inherit incorruption' (1 Cor. 15:50). I was about to discover the true meaning of these words by the apostle Paul.

As I began to take notice of my new body, I felt that it looked like me, but it wasn't me. I had heard of out-of-the-body experiences before, but in this case I had been taken out of my body and deposited in a body that was not me'yet it was me.

It was me as I was when I was a young adolescent. I had the same hair I had as a teenager. I couldn't see my face clearly, but I felt certain it was the face of the bewildered youth who had been without God and without hope. This time, however, the young girl knew God, and she was filled with hope. It was so fascinating. What did it all mean?

A SHINY TUNNEL AND STONE WALLS

Where had the Lord taken me? Why had He taken me with Him? I couldn't wait to hear His answers to these questions, because I knew they were for me as well as for all those He would lead me to.

First, we went to the right side of a hill that was alive with foliage. I could see a narrow, winding road snaking its way to the summit. Then we walked alongside a narrow river that flowed with the most crystal-clear water I'd ever seen. We followed the river to the entrance of a shiny tunnel that seemed endless. It was high and wide and, in comparison, the Lord and I were quite tiny. We walked through the mysterious tunnel, and when we emerged on the other side, we walked down to the beach again.

'We are going to a very high place,' The Lord said.

The minute He spoke these words He took my hand, and my body began to lift above the surface of the beach. As it did, my physical body on the bed trembled furiously. My hands and arms began to move in all directions as if I were swimming desperately in an effort to not drown. The groanings that emanated from my spirit grew louder and stronger.

We were literally flying through the air. We landed at a location that was filled with trees and grass, and our feet set down on a narrow, winding road.

The Lord and I walked along the road that came down from the top of the hill. Eventually we reached a huge white gate that stood in front of a large white building. We walked through the gate and proceeded toward the white building.

We entered and walked down a long corridor that led to a very large room, which we entered. As I looked down, I realized for the first time that I was wearing a different robe than I had on at the beach, and I could feel something heavy was resting on my head. I reached up and discovered a beautiful crown had been placed there without my realizing it.

Then I looked directly at the Lord. He was sitting on a throne, and He wore a radiant gown and golden crown. Others were there with me, kneeling on the floor and prostrating themselves before Him.

The walls of the room were made of large shiny stones that glowed. The multicolored rocks provided an effect that made the room seem warm and happy, as well as mysterious.

WHERE ONLY THE PURE-HEARTED CAN GO

Then, just as quickly as I had been transported up the mountain and into the white building, I found myself on the beach again. As I had been doing all along, I found myself alternately laughing, screaming, crying, shaking, flailing my arms and perspiring. The joy was so intense, I felt as if I could touch it. I knew I had been transported to a different world, but where was it? Why was this happening? What did it all mean?

The Lord answered my questions clearly and emphatically. 'My daughter, we went to the kingdom.'

He quickly recognized the question that was forming in my heart: How did we get there?

'The only ones who will go there are the obedient and pure-hearted children.'

The Master paused for a moment and then went on, 'Tell My children to preach the gospel. I am coming soon for those who are waiting and ready for Me.'

Now I knew my primary mission. I had seen the kingdom of heaven, and it was so very real. I'll never forget all the wonderful things I saw.

The Lord added, 'Those who don't tithe are disobedient children.'

'Should I tell this to anyone, Lord?'

'I want you to tell it to everyone.'

Then He reiterated something He had commanded me to do several times before: 'Write down everything I show you and tell you.'

'Tell me more, Lord.'

'Another time, My daughter. I know you are tired. Go to sleep.'

As He left, so did my transformed body. I reached over to the nightstand and got my pad and pen and began to write everything I had experienced on my exciting journey to the kingdom of God. I felt so numb and humble. There were no words to describe the feeling. I felt that I didn't belong to this world anymore.

From then on, all I could think about was the Lord and heaven. I longed to return to the kingdom. That longing must have been heard as a prayer, for, as you will see, the Lord took me with Him many times after that.