Chapter 21: A Fool For God

"But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise."
('1 CORINTHIANS 1:27)

On the first day of spring, 1999, the Lord told me many things during worship, and I almost made a fool of myself. Usually during worship times, my hands will move in every direction as I participate in the heavenly dancing and singing, but on this Sunday morning, I couldn't even lift my hands during the entire worship service, but my body was powerfully anointed throughout the time. I was confused by this turn of events.

In fact, the whole experience made me feel miserable. It was about the fourth time I had felt very unhappy since the Lord had started showing me the heavenly visions. I still had peace, but my mind was somewhat disturbed, even after the service when I was in the presence of the Lord.

After church, I complained to the Lord, and I did so again before dinnertime, but the Lord remained silent. I felt increasingly miserable. Suddenly the thought came to me that it was Satan who was doing this to me, so I cast out the devil in Jesus' name, and joy came back to me instantaneously.

I rejoiced with great smiles and happiness; then I asked the Lord for forgiveness. He responded: 'My daughter, you do not know how to protect yourself. Many Christians do not know how to cast out the enemy as you just did, and you must include this experience in your book.

'It is very important for every Christian to know how to cast the enemy out. When you are sick or you have other problems in your life, first you cast out the devil and then you pray to the Father in My name.'

What an important teaching that was for me! It soon was followed by the Lord teaching me about judging others. I used to wonder why some Spirit-filled believers have so many problems with earthly things. I didn't really think badly toward them, but I must admit that I did find myself wondering about it. I would think that perhaps these Christians were living against God's will, and for this reason, bad things would happen to their loved ones. Then God used my own daughter to teach me something about this attitude.

My daughter and I had a very close relationship, and we were best friends until suddenly our relationship stopped about three years ago. She is a Spirit-filled Christian and we thought she had good marriage, but suddenly she and her husband were having problems.

Eventually my daughter divorced her husband. They had two children. It had seemed as if they had everything they needed and wanted'more than most people'but they lost everything as a result of their marital problems and subsequent divorce. Though my daughter was successful in her job, she was surrounded by unbelievers and lived a completely ungodly life. As a result, she had all kinds of problems.

Before their marriage problems began, I had noticed how my daughter was moving far from the Lord. Each time I mentioned the Lord to her, she didn't want to hear about Him or talk about Him. She went to church once a week with her children and read the Bible and prayed, but otherwise she lived a worldly life.

Before her problems began, she had taken my advice, but suddenly she quit wanting to hear anything I had to say. She was a completely changed person. Roger and I felt that we never really knew her. We felt that she had lost all of her principles.

It gave me a measure of comfort to know the Lord was watching her behavior, but I knew He would not do anything for her until she repented and gave herself totally to Him. God will never force any of us to do anything that we don't want to do.

The Lord taught us many things through our daughter. Since becoming a Christian, I have not believed in divorce or in doing ungodly things knowingly. Therefore, I was very ashamed about my daughter's divorce and her ungodly life. It broke my heart so much that she was hurting our Lord Jesus. This was the hardest thing that had happened to us since we were saved, but we never blamed the Lord once. We humbled ourselves because we knew He would take care of everything in His way perfectly.

I believe the Lord didn't like my shameful thoughts about this matter, and He gave me no choice but to include my daughter's story in this book. I had already promised Him that no matter what the situation, I would obey Him all the days of my life. Therefore, I never questioned Him about why I had to do this. I only said: 'If this is what you want, Lord, I will do it.'

Now her life is settled and our relationship is like it used to be, but her life is so busy that she doesn't have time for herself or others. I am most concerned that she doesn't have time for the Lord.

After the revelation of heaven I had received and experienced, the Lord mentioned to me several times that there will be many divorces, many broken families and many people dying. Among them, He explained, will be many Christians.

I learned the things that happen to our children may have nothing at all to do with a parent's life with God. The Lord explained it this way, 'Even many faithful Christians and their loved ones have bad things happen sometimes. Judging others is one of the worst sins. No one has the right to judge others, no matter what the situation is, and until you learn through your own experience, this is a hard truth to understand.'

From that moment on, no matter what ungodly things may happen in people's lives, I choose never to think anything evil toward them. Rather, I choose to have compassion on them, as Paul commanded: 'Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault, ye which are spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness; considering thyself, lest thou also be tempted. Bear ye one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ' (Gal. 6:1-2, kjv).

WORSHIP TIMES

Since February 7, 1999, the Lord has revealed His presence to me every Sunday morning, always between 1 a.m. and 2 a.m. He uses this time to tell me what I should do during the Sunday morning service. Since March 21, I haven't been able to move my hands during the entire worship time.

Then, on March 28, I couldn't move my hands or my mouth, and I cried during the entire service with such joy and humbleness because I knew it was the Holy Spirit who was controlling my body. The Lord told me I should not ever do anything on my own when worship begins, so I always would sit there until the Holy Spirit would move upon me.

On this occasion, my body was powerfully anointed, and I stood up, but I could not lift my hands throughout the entire worship time. When the worship ended, my hands and mouth released the Lord's power.

On April 11, 1999, the Lord told me in the morning that it would be a special day, so I geared up for action in the realm of miracles. Instead, the Lord came with His gold crown and robe, and He stood by the pulpit for at least twenty minutes. That alone was miracle enough, I reasoned.

I prayed the entire time under a very heavy anointing. I could not move my hands or dance throughout the entire worship time.

On April 18, 1999, the Lord instructed me about what I should do that morning after I prayed in tongues for a half hour before worship. He told me not to move my body in my own way but to sit and wait, so that is exactly what I did.

Before the first song was over, my body stood up, but I couldn't move any part of it. Suddenly heavenly songs came forth, and the Holy Spirit moved my body to the front of the worship team, and my body turned toward the congregation and I started to dance with my heavenly song.

When worship was over, my singing and dancing stopped, and I returned to my seat with the Lord's permission. During the whole time while I was dancing my eyes were closed, fixed only on Jesus. I felt such unspeakable joy throughout the service. Ordinarily I am a very shy person, but I felt stunned with such a strong anointing this time that I didn't care what people thought or said.

The Lord directed me to tell the pastor that there will be many surprises and blessings coming for the church, and that the dance was under the prompting of the Holy Spirit. It was one of the happiest days of my life'a day I had long awaited because the Lord promised that this dance would be the beginning of my ministry.

I also saw a vision that day, after He started my body-work. I saw myself standing on a rock, looking down at the endless ocean. I was wearing a white gown, as I enjoyed the vision by dancing and singing on the rock.

Rachel in Heaven On May 6, 1999, after my nightly prayers, the Lord directed me to include in the book the name of a high school student shot during the Columbine High School shootings in Colorado. Her name was Rachel.

'Rachel was chosen for End-Time use,' He said, 'and she was chosen before she was born. Through her, I plan to touch millions of souls, both young and old.'

Before this I had been crying for Rachel, because it blessed me so much to know how she had stood up for her Lord in the face of death. I knew she was with Him in heaven, and that knowledge brought great joy to me. I have never felt sorry about how she died because I knew where she went after death. Whoever dies for our Lord Jesus experiences the greatest blessings of all.

The Lord told me many things about Rachel, but when I awoke the next morning in order to write the experience in the book, I completely forgot her name. No matter how hard I tried, her name would not come to me, so I thought maybe it wasn't that important for me to include her in the book.

After my morning prayer, while the Lord and I were talking, I told Him about how her name would not come back to me. He whispered, 'Rachel,' and I've never forgotten her name again. The Lord said: 'Rachel is happier with Me than she ever was on earth, and I will bless her family. Too often people blame every bad thing that happens on Satan. If Rachel's death were Satan's will, My name would never have been brought up before she died. Satan has no power over My people if I don't allow him to.

'Each life has a special purpose in this world. That is why I use some people in special ways. So, don't think that because someone is a faithful Christian that they will live long and perfect lives on earth. If I have to take one life in order to save another, I will do so.

'As I said before, I will have to take many lives before I return. Among them will be many Christians. Salvation is that important to Me. But always remember that I never want to see anyone perish.'

REBUKED

One Sunday in 1999, the Holy Spirit took me to the front of the sanctuary, in front of the worship team, and I joyfully began dancing and singing. Suddenly, when the pastor appeared before me, and he rebuked the dance.

The pastor grabbed my arm and took me back to my seat. I began to cry, because I knew he was hurting my Lord, but I was not ashamed or angry about what he did to me. Nonetheless, I felt very bad for my pastor, because it was the enemy that did it to him.

The dance I do during times of worship is not an ordinary dance. Because the Lord had worked with my body and hands for so many months, great power was built up within me, and the Lord directed each and every movement of my dancing. When I dance, I don't move my own hands, but the Holy Spirit moves them for me. I never try to stop my hands on my own; I let the Holy Spirit stop them.

Each step and movement is executed seven times, and I could never make these moves on my own. The Holy Spirit guides each part. It is for this reason that I go to church at least thirty minutes before worship begins, and I also pray two hours or more before I go to church, by the Lord's direction.

Then, every Monday the Lord takes me to the beach in my transformed body, and after we talk I kneel before Him. Following this, I dance before Him with a heavenly song; it is the same dance that He requires of me during church services.

Dancing, therefore, has become very important to the Lord, and I know it is part of the ministry He has given. There is so much power in my body, and after the dance, I have no strength and I can hardly stand.

After I was rebuked, I went home and talked with the Lord. I learned that He was very unhappy with my pastor. He said: 'He didn't believe you because the devil got to him. He quenched My Holy Spirit. You must never return to that church.'

For almost one month I had been dancing in front of the church, and the Lord had planned many blessings for that church. The devil ruined it.

'Only about 20 percent of churches are putting Me first; the rest of them are worrying about what people say and how much money they will have. Many churches are not concerned about reaching out to lost souls at all. That is the most important thing to Me.

'I must tell you, daughter, that many pastors will go into the valleys I showed you, then their congregations will follow. Any pastor who mistreats My special anointed servants and My prophets will not be blessed. But someone with a special blessing from Me can bring blessing to an entire church. You must put all this in your book, Choo Nam.'

I begged the Lord not to require this of me, because I was worried about the effect it would have on the pastor, but the Lord reminded me that I needed to obey Him at all times. He pointed out that He wants other churches to know these things as well.

The pastor is a very anointed and loving person, but he doubted me because Satan came between him and me. We had been attending that church for more than four years, and had missed only one Sunday service because of a heavy snowfall.

My ministry at the church had been in the form of intercessory prayer, and my husband contributed a great deal of work to the building program. Roger was also the head usher, and we truly loved the pastor and church very much, but one day's experience changed everything.

A NEW BEGINNING

I had heard of Bethel Church before, but I never had a desire to go there or to any other church because the Lord had ordered me to stay where we were until such time as He would release us.

On May 16, 1999, I knew I could never go back to the first church again, and I believed the Lord would lead us to another church. My mind began to think about Bethel, and during the prayer before dinner, the Lord whispered, 'Bethel.'

That confirmed it, and my heart began to desire to go there for worship. That night we attended services at Bethel, and I experienced a warm and wonderful anointing. In fact, the anointing was so intense that my dress was soaked with perspiration.

On May 23, we attended the Sunday service at Bethel, but we had misunderstood the time of the service. We were thirty minutes late for worship, but the minute I sat down, the intense anointing of God's Holy Spirit was all over me once more. Indeed, it was uncontrollable, even though I had missed the opportunity to pray and dance before the service. To the Lord, that half hour of praying in tongues before worship is extremely important.

On May 30, 1999, we attended Bethel again, and this time I danced freely during the worship service. While I was dancing at our old church, I had felt quite uncomfortable.

The Lord had explained to me that there had been a great deal of bickering about my dancing in front of the worship team at the old church. I'm sure my discomfort had come from the Holy Spirit on those occasions. The Lord reminded me: 'Any church that doesn't let the Holy Spirit move the church body freely cannot be blessed. I plan to pour out a much stronger anointing upon the church before I return, and the churches had better be prepared for it.'

The Lord told me that He would talk to me after the worship service about some very important things. He told me to talk to the writer about the book. He asked me to send out the manuscript for the body-work and to make a list of all the heavenly visions He has given to me over the past three years of training.

Though I had often mentioned the book to the Lord, He always told me that He would take care of it in His time and that I should not be concerned about it. The Lord was giving me some release about the book, and I was very excited.

He also told me to give a list of my heavenly visions and to share my spiritual experiences with our new pastor, Pastor Wolfson.

After three and a half years with the Lord, I realize that my thoughts and actions are no longer my own. My entire life belongs to God. My thinking, my feelings and my behaviors all have changed. I have so much compassion for lost and needy souls, and my heart aches for anyone who does not know the Lord.

Now I know that when I please my Lord and always put Him first, everything in my life will work out. My wonderful Lord has transformed me inside out, and He has taught me many amazing things about His ways. No one can make me angry any longer because the Lord's great love in my life enables me to forgive him or her.

'I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies' (Ps. 18:1-3, kjv).