Chapter 20: The Heavens Opened Up

"The Heavens Opened Up But he, being full of the Holy Spirit, gazed into heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God, and said, 'Look! I see the heavens opened and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God!"
(ACTS 7:55-56)

On May 16, 1998, the Lord told me in the morning that I must prepare for bed early that evening. Therefore, after my bedtime prayer, a special anointing came to me, and the Lord said, 'I must show you something.' The minute He uttered these words, my eyes closed tightly and a special groaning came forth from my spirit. Heaven began to open before me.

At first everything was bright, and then I saw all of heaven. It was a place of purity and whiteness, and the roads and buildings were immaculately clean.

He took me into heaven once more, and He began to show me things one by one. A brilliance like sunlight was everywhere.

Then the Lord showed me all the oceans of the world and the whole earth. Snow was covering the earth. The Lord explained: 'I must purify My people before I bring them to My kingdom. Unless they are pure-hearted, they cannot see My kingdom.'

Then I remembered one of the Beatitudes: 'Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God' (Matt. 5:8).

My arms stretched out sideways, making a crosslike form out of my body. This lasted for at least ten minutes. I cried throughout that time span, but I wasn't sure if my tears were coming from gratitude, joy or pain. The Lord was repeating some of the previous lessons, and He reiterated that He wanted me to put them all down in the book.

This helps me to better understand the title He gave to this book, Heaven Is So Real! By repeating these lessons and experiences in my life, I grew to know exactly how real heaven is.

THE THRONE OF GOD

On June 6, 1998, the Lord told me to go to bed early once again. I knew something great was about to happen. After my bedtime prayer, a strong anointing came, and once more the heavens were opened above me. I saw God's throne, and I saw the Father sitting upon it. He was wearing a white crown and robe, and He had long, white hair. The Lord Jesus was standing at His right side. Jesus' appearance was the same as I had always remembered it.

Both the Father and the Son were wearing white. I couldn't see their faces, but I heard a voice saying: 'Choo Nam, I am releasing you to do the work I have prepared you for. You will serve Me now. I am pleased with everything about you.'

Hearing this confirmation was more thrilling than words can tell. After this vision of heaven vanished, the Lord's presence appeared once more, and He repeated what the Father had said to me. It was as if I was being launched into the service God had called me to, and it was wonderful to know this was happening.

ANGELS WATCHING OVER US

Throughout the month of December 1998, the Lord again showed me many of the things He had already shown me. He repeated some of the body-work as well. He opened heaven for me time and time again. Each time He did I would see the entire sky very clearly, including the bright stars of heaven.

Above the stars I saw clouds, and above the clouds I saw heaven. The brightness of heaven was astounding, and its vastness is indescribable. It is truly an endless expanse that goes all around the earth. Whenever the Lord shows heaven to me, I respond with constant joyful singing.

This time when the Lord showed heaven to me, he also showed me a multitude of angels flying everywhere. I noticed, also, that the angels of heaven were flying throughout the atmosphere of earth as well. The Lord told me that the angels I saw flying all around the earth were watching over His people.

Some of the visions God imparted to me came after the Lord made my fingers touch my eyes more than a thousand times in two months. He took me through each step seven different times.

Whenever this happened I would see the most beautiful sparkles, like diamonds, then I would see the beautiful stones of heaven. One stone, in particular, looked like an eyeball. At first, it appeared to be a very dark purple, then it changed to lighter and lighter colors until it looked like a sparkling, clear diamond. It is the most beautifully colored stone I've ever seen. It almost seemed to be on my hand, because I could see its sparkles so clearly.

CHRISTMAS EVE MEMORIES WITH THE LORD

On December 24, 1998, the Lord came to me once more in His magnificent Christmas crown and robe. His presence was the same that Christmas Eve as it had been the two previous years, but the experience was different. The minute I saw His presence this time, I knelt before Him, then sang, danced and cried with unspeakable joy. This was not something I manufactured; it all came as a result of the Holy Spirit taking control of my life.

I can honestly say that I will never forget anything the Lord showed me or said to me. He often repeated things to help me develop patience, and He reminded me that without patience, no one might truly serve Him.

He pointed out that salvation is an unmerited gift of His grace, but receiving other special gifts requires hard work. All the gifts are free, but we must practice patience to obtain them. Everything in our lives must be according to His way, not our way. We must obey Him, no matter what it takes.

He explained that during His time on this earth He lived only to obey His Father's will. He was not interested in pursuing His own will or plans, only God's. He also pointed out to me that those to whom He imparts special gifts for ministry must pay a higher price than others. He concluded by saying, 'Even if you don't want to do this work, you have to do so, because I have chosen you to be an End-Time prophetess.'

As I mentioned before, the Lord is so understanding of my needs, even when I complain. He always stands there and listens to everything I say. When I finish, He says: 'My daughter, I understand how you feel, but I must do it this way. It has to be in My way and in My time.' After His gentle rebukes I always feel humbled, and I respond by repenting of my impatience, my questioning and my lack of understanding.

A NEW YEAR DAWNS

On January 1, 1999, the Lord showed me His beautiful robe and crown once again. It was the first time He did so on a New Year's Day. I asked Him what the significance of this change was, and He explained, 'My daughter, this is a very special year for My people.' His loving presence overwhelmed me, and I started to sing and dance and cry before Him.

On January 8, 1999, the Lord again wore His special crown and gown. The vision-voice came through me, and I began to cry. I realized that the Lord wears these special vestments only on particularly meaningful occasions, usually to celebrate a major milestone.

He told me that He was celebrating my work. We conversed for a while, then my hands stretched toward Him, and He put His hands on top of my hands. He said simply, 'Bless you.'

As He said this, the power seemed so strong that I felt my whole body was merging with Him. I sobbed under the intense anointing of that moment, and then my hands once more rested on my chest as I quieted down.

The period from January 9 through January 14, 1999, was particularly memorable for me. The Lord showed me a vision of the church I attended. In this spiritual vision I saw many people in the church who were overflowing with the Holy Spirit, and I saw handicapped people walking, empty wheelchairs and other blessings. I began to sing and dance as I also saw the church's parking lot filled with cars.

THE POWER OF PRAYER

On January 15, 1999, after my bedtime prayer, the Lord came and we talked together. The special anointing came upon me, and the vision-voice came forth. Then I began to sing. I saw the Lord changed into His beautiful crown and gown, and I began to sing and dance. I went through several hand movements, and each was done seven different times.

After this session of body-work was finished, the Lord changed back into His normal white gown. He proceeded to tell me that He was revealing all the work He had prepared for me to do. From this time forth, He explained, I must only pray in tongues to reveal continually all the work He prepared and all His promises to me. When He begins my dancing ministry, I will have fellowship only with Him and will pray for the work. He pointed out that I would not have as much time for prayer.

For many years I've been engaged in intercessory prayer seven days a week. It takes nearly two hours for me to pray for the people God puts on my heart, and for all the nations of the world. I said, 'Lord, it will be hard for me not to pray for all these people.'

He responded, 'It is time for them to pray for you.'

Then He proceeded to tell me how to pray most effectively. 'Choo Nam, as you begin to pray, always praise the Father first, and then start to pray in tongues for your work and ministry.' He further encouraged me to take my stand upon His promises so the enemy would not ever be able to steal the promises from me.

As the Master taught me more about prayer, I realized how very important it is in each of our lives. He told me to pray in tongues when I rise in the morning until the flow ceases each Sunday before I go to church. Then he urged me to go to church thirty minutes early each time, and to pray in tongues without interruption until the worship begins.

Some people don't understand why I do this, but the ones who do understand are those who have a deep, personal walk with the Lord. They understand what I mean when I say that Jesus is more real to me than I am to myself.

He listens so very patiently when I talk to Him. No matter how bad a given set of circumstances may seem, all I have to do is to talk it over with Him, then the situation gets better. I talk to Him in the Spirit, but to me, He is so human and real that it's as if I've entered an entirely new dimension of life. No one understands me like Jesus does. I value Him above life itself.

My church work now consists only of praying for the church, its people, the pastors and so on. I do so daily, and I worship the Lord with all my heart during the church services. During those precious times of worship I am totally oblivious to those around me.

I usually see the Lord walking around the front of the church with a very happy face. That is why I frequently find myself laughing heartily during worship. During those times I give every ounce of my energy and attention to the Lord, and I believe that's what worship really is.

REMAIN QUIET UNTIL THE PROPER TIME

In January 1999 I was under instructions from the Lord not to share any of what He had done in and for me with anyone. He had said He would reveal those things to the people when the proper time came. Sometimes this was difficult for me, especially as it pertained to my family and my pastor, but I had no choice but to obey the Lord because I knew I would lose the blessing if I didn't.

Sometimes this realization made me want to leave my church and go to another church where no one knew me. I almost wanted to hide from others, because I am a very sensitive person, and I hate for others to think I'm avoiding them.

It all required supernatural patience. I realized that many might not believe me about my revelation of heaven, but I was not concerned about such matters, because I knew my Lord Jesus would take care of it as He had said He would. Now I know how Jesus felt when no one believed Him, when He walked this earth. Realizing what He had to go through for me always makes me feel better when I'm misunderstood or judged by others.

A POLISHED VESSEL

During the first part of January 1999 the Lord showed me some rough, brown-colored clay and said: 'My daughter, you were like this before I began to work on your physical and mental body. Now you are a perfectly polished vessel.' He showed this to me again, and the brown clay had become very shiny and sparkling. This revelation caused me to feel humbled once more, because I realized anew what God had done in my life.

On January 23, 1999, the Lord told me that on the next day (a Sunday) at 6 a.m. I should begin praying in tongues for all His promises and to continue until the flow stopped. He also told me to go to the church thirty minutes early, praise the Father first and to pray in tongues until the beginning of worship.

He was careful to warn me not to let anyone interrupt me. His direction was clear, 'You may go earlier, but no later than 9:30.' This, I realized, must have been the reason for the new tongue He had given to me about ten days before.

A week later, the Lord told me to do the same things. About ten minutes before the worship service began, I saw the Lord standing on the platform, and He was wearing the beautiful gown and crown He always wears on special occasions. He looked very happy, and the minute I saw His presence I experienced a heavy spiritual anointing.

I could barely stand up during worship times. After church, I prayed as usual, and I asked the Lord why He was wearing the special vestments at church that morning. He answered, 'I have opened the door for your work to begin.'

THE WORK HAS BEGUN

On February 7, 1999, the Lord awakened me around 2 a.m. to let me know that my work had begun. He explained that it was a very special day for me, so I expected Him to take me to the front of the church to dance as He had promised long ago, but this did not happen.

I was very disappointed, and I cried and complained before Him when I returned home. For at least one hour the Lord listened to me, and when I finished my outpouring, I humbled myself in repentance. The Lord simply said that I must have misunderstood Him. Despite all these negative feelings, however, it was the strongest anointing I'd ever experienced during a worship time.

On March 11, 1999, after my usual morning prayer time, my hands began to touch my eyes, and the Lord showed me the beautiful stones once more. I didn't want to open my eyes. A thought came to me, and I told the Lord if I never saw anyone or anything again as long as I am on this earth that I still wanted Him to use me as He had promised He would, so the spiritually blinded people of the earth could truly see.

I have seen enough of this world, and everything it has to offer pales in insignificance compared with the light of the heavenly vision God has graciously given me. Just seeing my Lord and serving Him for the rest of my life are enough for me, I realized, and I began to weep. I really meant every word, and the Lord knew my thoughts. He said, 'My daughter, you are doubly blessed.'

Though I wasn't exactly sure what that meant, I knew I had been telling the Lord that if I ever had to exchange my life for this book, I would be honored to do so. My life in this world holds very little meaning for me now. I only want everyone to read the book, and to discover what it takes to enter the kingdom of God.